Well that's was that. . . . Mi Ama's gone. She drifted awayin to her sunset.

I find myself in washington. I got here
12/03/07. I was but a block n half away from the hospital when I got the phone call, "Chava, sh'es gone." I didn't make it. A moment shorter. If I just could've hurried. But I no guilt, regrets. Anything. Not even mi ama. My tia told me that she told mi ama that me that she told mmi ama, " Ama, chava and saul are here w/ the kids." And that she let her last tear go before took her last gasp of life on this earth.

I'm in so much despair. Disbelief. I almost want to be selfish and wish she were here. But I know that it won't make things better. She suffered enough. She was ready. I just can't believe. She's really gone. My heart hurts lke never before I'm so choked up right now. My dad put a recording of her signing and I just lost it. I can't help the way I feel. I know I need to be strong for my family.

.:: ama, como te extraño. Quiero que sepas, que tu siempre estaras conmigo, handando por las sendas de esta vida. Quiero besar tu cara. Labar tus pies. Tratarte como la rena que eres. ¿Que tan grande es tu corona? Intercede por mi. Te quiero socorrito. Yo pronto te veo. Y pudemos star juntos alabando nuestro padre quien nos dio la oportunidad de estar juntos un tiempo en esta tierra. Estaba escuchanto tu linda voz horita con mi pa. Me haces que mi corazon sonrie. Te quiro ama, y ya casi te extraño mas. Hay como digo ama. I love you ans that'll navr change. Even though your gone, you still never cease to fascinate me::.